Olivia DeRossi

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Facts:
1) Hates to be called by her full name, Olivia, and will not respond to it. She much prefers Livi, Liv, O, Via or any other fun nickname people come up with.
2) Is allergic to peanuts and first found out at the age of 6. She ate a peanut butter and jelly sandwich at Kindergarten, her throat closed up and she almost died. Luckily, she doesn't remember much about this incident.
3) Only wears underwear to work. Sometimes. Ok, maybe just important meetings.
4) Often gets to hang out with celebrities that she works with, but she doesn't talk about it much because she doesn't want to seem snobby or like she's showing off.
5) Has a baby brother, Stephan who is six. She isn't exactly sure that her little brother has the same father she does, her mom can be kind of a whore, but that is a family secret.
6) Was born and raised in San Diego, California. Grew up next door to The Hall family and last spoke to childhood friend Tristen about three years ago.
7) Is a daddy's girl, misses being around her little brother, and avoids her mother at all costs.
8) Has a pet teacup pig named Kevin Bacon.
9) Loves her job, but wishes she had been a performer like she always wanted to be.
10) Is addicted to red jelly beans, original flavor cheez-its, and mint chocolate chip milkshakes.

My goodness does time fly when you're having fun! I'll admit, not all of it has been fun, but I finally feel like I'm working towards something worthwhile, something I love, so I gladly take the good with the bad. I decided to sit down and write a song and try to record it. I called up an old friend who helped with it all, and it's currently being mastered. The sneak preview I put out seemed to go over pretty well, and I already got an offer for some radio play. So I am super excited, to say the least. This could be the start of something big. But I am not dumb, I know it's hit or miss and I don't want to get my hopes up and be disappointed later. Honestly, I'm not looking to become some big pop star or something like that. Don't get me wrong, that would be amazing, but I would be just as happy getting to write and play and sing in any venue, small or large.

I disappeared for a couple of days last week, but I don't think anyone noticed. Which was fine with me. I got kind of excited about the reception my song was getting, so I went home to play it for my parents and brother and see what they thought of it. Stephan loved it, but I think he was more excited to hear his big sis on a CD than anything else. He didn't really get that it was just some recorded music and not everyone has a copy of it. My mom was surprised, but not necessarily in a good way. She always assumed I'd go into modeling like she did, but then again I'm a little too old to just get started in all of that. She was into it for about a minute, probably thinking about the publicity end of things. But after that, she could care less and didn't try to hide how uninterested she was in all of it. Daddy had the worst reaction though, he got really mad and just stormed out of the room. We talked a little bit later, he just said that he was really disappointed in me for not listening to him about the whole music industry thing. So after that, I just came back home and I am still trying to figure out what to do about all of this. I really really want to pursue this, and take advantage of the good response I've gotten. But if it means messing things up with my family, I don't know if it's worth it in the end.

Enough about that. I had gone home for a few days without telling anyone, not even Tristen. So I expected him to be upset when I came back, but he didn't seem too concerned. I know he's been really really busy with work lately, so that was probably why he didn't call or anything. And I didn't mean to worry him, it was nothing serious after all, so it worked out. But after that he surprised me. He's on vacation from work for a little bit and we're taking a little trip to Hawaii. Actually, we're there right now! I know, I know, what the heck am I doing writing a journal entry while in a gorgeous place like this? I just finally had a chance to sit down and get down my thoughts. Plus Tris is still asleep, we had quite a night last night! Ok, so now I am going back to vaycay mode and enjoying the sun, sand and all the fun of the big island!

So, I'm sorry to say I've been kind of blah lately. And a blah Livi is no fun, no fun indeed. But blah is what sometimes happens when I get in my own head too much. So I need to stop that. Maybe I should explain. Tristen and I have been together for a few months now, we recently moved in together even though it's been a long time coming. And I really hate to admit it, but I am becoming obsessed with that man. I think about him all the time, and it always makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside. But a couple of weeks ago, I kind of realized that there is a huge difference between the Tristen in my head, and the Tristen in real life. I think that kind of happens in a lot of relationships, you start to idealize someone. When I took a good long hard look at it, what we haven isn't as perfect as it is in my head. Now, don't get me wrong, what we do have is good, and it's not like I'm thinking of breaking up or anything. I just feel like it's a lot like my past relationships. Which weren't really relationships at all, it was just me fucking some guy until he found some other girl to fuck. I don't want to say that's what I'm doing with Tristen, but I don't have a whole lot of proof that it's much more than that.

So, I moped a little, and did they whole girly thing with retail therapy and ice cream and sad songs. And then I finally sucked it up and talked to him about it a little. I didn't do as much talking as I had planned. Honestly, I just don't want things to get all complicated and messy, you know? He's the first guy I have ever like actually loved, and I do not want to get all mushy and clingy and whatnot. So I still hold a lot back. And maybe he does the same, I don't know. I know he's had some less than perfect relationships in the past. I don't want to feel like I can't function without him, but I also don't want to end up like my parents. Two people who just happen to live in the same house, yet never associate unless its in the bedroom. I feel better now about things since our talk. But I am still not 100% sure of what this whole thing is between us, if it really means something, or if we're just biding our time.

And speaking of my parents, I went home for Mother's Day. Only because Daddy asked me to. And I wanted to see Stephen. My mother and I, well, we don't talk much anymore since I caught her fucking the pool boy. And the gardner. And Daddy's best friend. But I was good I didn't even call her a disgusting whore. At least not in front of anyone else and we had a nice little lunch. I even talked them into letting Stephen come visit for a weekend or two. Tristen came along, and then after we went to visit his mom. His family is so awesome. But I know it's hard for him and he was probably missing his sister. I wish I could help more with that, but aside from just listening, I don't think there's much I could do.

In other news, I've hung out a few times with Alicia and it is so good to get out and have some fun! Alicia is so great, she is so smart and funny and gorgeous, I gotta say sometimes I'm a tad jealous. The girl's got it all! I've been thinking a lot more lately about actually trying to do something with my life. I don't want to be picking up laundry and getting coffee for the rest of my life. I did a little writing, but nothing I'm ready to share yet. My boss caught me singing the other day when I was doing some things around her house, and she said she was going to make a call or two for me. I told her not to. But it was really exciting for a minute or two to think that someone still thinks I've got something special. Anywho, I better run. I have been seriously neglecting Kevin Bacon lately and I need to give my little piggy poo some love.

I know, I know, you've all been wondering what Livi has been up to lately. Well, sorry to disappoint my fans, haha, but I've just been working mostly and hanging out with my man and some new friends! First and foremost, there's work. As much as I love my boss, some days I really hate being a personal assistant. Not that anything I do is rocket science, but honestly, why can't people do some things for themselves, celebrity or not? I guess what this all teaches me is that I am pretty darn awesome at organizing, scheduling and taking care of myself. It also makes me wish more and more that I had gone into performing. Not so that I can hire someone else to take care of my day to day things. I just miss doing something that made me feel good, I miss the thrill of being on stage, I miss how excited it all got me. Not that things are horrible, it's just not very... fulfilling.

Anywho, besides working, I've done a little hanging out with some people around here. I haven't done as much socializing as I would like, and I don't really know why. I guess I just haven't put myself out there much. I need to work on that. Anyway, I went to lunch with Aurora and she brought along her adorable little girl, Prudence. It was really nice to get to know them a bit better and just sit and chat and relax. I definitely want to hang out again soon, Aurora! I will hold you to your offer of Mexican food and I promise promise promise to come through with making you something equally awesome. I also went on a fun little spa day with a bunch of ladies around here. Getting made up is always fun, but it was also nice to be able to sit and chit chat and get to know people better. I feel like there needs to be more of that around here. I should get on that.

Finally, I've spent a lot of time with Tristen. What can I say, I love hanging out with him, whether we're going out dancing or just hanging out at his place or mine. A while back, he asked me to move in with him and I sort of changed the subject. But he asked me again lately and I couldn't say no! It's an exciting step in our relationship, I am so so glad things are going well with us. I know he's been going through a rough time lately, and I am doing absolutely everything I can to help him out and just show him that I care and I love him regardless. I just wish there was more I could do. I think he needs to socialize a little more, he works so hard all the time, he needs some buddies to unwind with. He had a party the other day, and I was hoping for a big turn out for him, but only one other person showed, his ex-wife. It could have been super awkward and uncomfortable, but I did my best to make things good. I've met her a couple times before and she seems nice, if not a little on the quiet side. I'm just glad she came out to Tristen's party and that they're friends. Hopefully he can make even more friends around here in the future and I can get to know Ti and some other people around here a bit better.

Wow. Six months ago I was living across the country from everything I knew and I had all these ideas about how my life was going to totally change. If nothing else, New York was a learning experience. I got to see first hand how the industry can really be, the down and dirty side of things. I gotta say, I shouldn't have been surprised given the things I've seen and heard from my dad. But, hey, it is what it is, and if I want a job, I need to just accept it.

Fast forward to now. I never ever, ever, in a million years thought I'd be where I am right now. I did something a little spontaneous and crazy and just woke up one day, packed everything up and moved back to Cali. I really had no expectations or plans, other than to get away from some crap in NYC. I decided I didn't want to go home and deal with my mother, and even though I miss my little brother like crazy, I made a few calls and found a better place to go. San Francisco. At the very least, I figured I could look up an old friend here. And that is exactly what I did. Less than three days in a new house and I was a few blocks away, standing on his doorstep. I totally didn't expect things to go the way they have, but it's nice so far. Really nice.

Of course, I can't be satisfied with just one person to hang out. First, I hung out with Cadie, who is so awesome, and he knows Tristen too! Small world, right? Then, I threw a house party and invited all the super awesome people that welcomed me around here. I know not everyone could make it, which is sad, but the people that did show up? We had a blast! I got invited to Tori and Skyler's wedding, danced half naked with Raina and Caelan, did shots with Tristen and had a great time with everyone else! Thank you all sooooo much for coming, and we definitely need to hang out again soon. That goes for EVERYONE! A couple days ago I had to go to the hardware store for work. I hate those places, they smell like wood. But, I ran into this cute guy there named David, and I know he was checking me out. I was a good girl though and all we did was talk!

Speaking of being a good girl, that's not usually me. I'm not gonna lie, I've never really had a boyfriend before, more like a just a bunch of fuck buddies. But this whole... relationship thing, I think I'm liking it. I'm probably a handful, but he's been really really good to me and I could definitely get used to this. I really like falling asleep and waking up next to him and not having to do the walk of shame. And my dad is glad that I'm actually with a decent guy for once. We wants to take us out to dinner when he's in town next week, which could go really well, or be a giant disaster. We'll see!